October 2010
“When you love someone so deeply they become your life, it’s easy to...”
– Mariah Carey
mols:
You have to want to get better. Your mind, it has to want to heal. That is the first step to recovery. So get up. You can do it. It’s time to get better. You may not believe in yourself, but I believe in you.
5330.) Everybody wants something, but I don't know...
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Homecoming
Before the Homecoming Dance, I spent about 2 weeks silently crying and burning with this vengeance toward my mother. Two days before the Homecoming dance, her will to deny me of permission to the Homecoming dance faltered.
Before the dance, I was having the Homecoming Dinner at one of the houses of my best friend’s friends. Then, some creeper slides his hand around my ribcage in such an...
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This year, stress seems like my constant companion, always hanging over me everywhere I go. If someone asks me about what career I want to pursue, my mind goes completely blank. I don’t think I’m ready to have any responsibility; I don’t even know what direction life is blowing me toward. I know I have some talent in art, but each year, I feel like I’m digging myself in a...
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“I’ve cried only three times in my life. When I’m last, I maintain my self...”
– Drunken Tiger
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Over the year, the relationship between me and mom has pretty much been sinking deeper and deeper into the quicksand, or the shithole we call life. In my head, I’ve murdered her more than just a million times. I’ve complained about her more than enough times, but I never feel that my words would never be able to compensate for how much I wouldn’t mind slitting her fucking...
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WatchSharing a swing <3
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The kid in front of me in my Algebra 2 class was talking to his friends about how the jeans he was wearing haven’t been washed in 3 MONTHS. Seth is such a smelly fuck. I honestly wish he wouldn’t lift his shirts to scratch his hairy body. Honestly, he is going to give me cancer in the eyes if that’s even possible. The fact he didn’t wash his jeans for 3 months pretty much...
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Humble
On Sunday, I was beyond upset about my mom not letting me go to the Homecoming Dance of the school that I was supposed to be enrolled in. Throughout our car ride to Los Angeles, I made sure to let her know how irritated I was. I didn’t even want to go through the 2 hour car ride because anything is much more enjoyable compared to being stuck with that bitch. If I didn’t go, she always...
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Water
During Freshman year, I felt like a living carcass. I tend to drink water because I get urges to drink water just to reassure myself that I’m alive.
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Isn’t it ironic how people say that they hate their mom when they, in fact, love them? When I say that I hate my mom, I am beyond sure that they only feeling I have toward her is hatred. In my head, I’ve murdered my mom more than just a million times. Whenever I feel the need to rant about her, I can never think of what to say because there’s too many parts of my life that she...
